29th may, saturday

when I was long john's talking to sherlyn` and gab about my problem yesterday, the radio was playing on the speakers. right after sherlyn` sent an sms to joshua saying I wanted to annul the relationship, the song 'come what may'. it was then I started to regret that decision like crazy. sherlyn` used gab's phone radio to play the song louder. I thought of joshua and everything. gab sensed tears were about to flow from my eyes. I was scared that things would change rapidly. sherlyn` and gab reassured me, that nothing would change.

had a good talk with him last night. the conversation had ended really unexpectedly. shucks.

felt like composing stuff when I woke up. so I decided to compose one. its bout unhappiness and stuff like that.


sadness cast upon me like a fallen bridge
getting heavier and heavier like a moving ridge
what happened, why is this so, I cry, I wonder
yearning to yell out feelings hidden deep under
many secrets I shared, opened and sealed by trust
often enough I've been betrayed, feeling life's unjust
many a time I've fallen into the dust of disgrace
meditating just why cant my life fall into place
some people bask in happiness, joy and laughter
why isnt it the same for me, answers I sought after
why must there be sorrow and hurt, I speculated on
so unlike the rising sun and warmth of dawn
success in life is a journey, not a destination
whatever living thing you see is God's creation
so even though life doesnt seem to be going your way
whatever troubles u have, give it to God and pray

its rather short. I'm stumped. ran out of ideas. hope whoever's reading it like what you see.